I have been told that I come across as a bit of a snob. A bit standoffish. Remote. Scary…was another description. Haha! It’s interesting to see how perceptions and reality can be a bit off at times. I can understand why I come across this way. I use humor and smart remarks to get attention and also to diffuse awkward moments. As I was thinking about this subject, I realized that so many of us carry a shell that we want others to see…while hiding ourselves inside.
Inside of me, and I would think in others as well, is a lot of fear. “Fear of man”, as my husband told me the other day, something I didn’t realize that I had so much of. Outside I am confident, articulate, artistic and friendly. Inside, I doubt my choices, and have panic attacks when in a group larger than 3 people. How can there be such a large difference? Am I just like everyone else? One thing to everyone else and something totally different inside? How can I change this and bring it all into alignment and truth?
Proverbs 29:25 says, “The fear of man brings a snare. But whoever trusts in The Lord shall be safe.” The concordance in my Bible has many references to fear. A common theme. I liked how this passage says that fear is a snare…that’s a trap! A trap keeping us from doing the will of God. A trap pushing down our gifts and talents. A trap keeping us from unconditional love. A trap of insecurity and doubt.
My prayer is that fear becomes a thing in my past. This fear is something that I can surrender on a daily, even hourly, basis. My prayer is that fear will not control the potential that God has placed in me…