The Snob…

I have been told that I come across as a bit of a snob. A bit standoffish. Remote. Scary…was another description. Haha! It’s interesting to see how perceptions and reality can be a bit off at times. I can understand why I come across this way. I use humor and smart remarks to get attention and also to diffuse awkward moments. As I was thinking about this subject, I realized that so many of us carry a shell that we want others to see…while hiding ourselves inside.

Inside of me, and I would think in others as well, is a lot of fear. “Fear of man”, as my husband told me the other day, something I didn’t realize that I had so much of. Outside I am confident, articulate, artistic and friendly. Inside, I doubt my choices, and have panic attacks when in a group larger than 3 people. How can there be such a large difference? Am I just like everyone else? One thing to everyone else and something totally different inside? How can I change this and bring it all into alignment and truth?

Proverbs 29:25 says, “The fear of man brings a snare. But whoever trusts in The Lord shall be safe.” The concordance in my Bible has many references to fear. A common theme. I liked how this passage says that fear is a snare…that’s a trap! A trap keeping us from doing the will of God. A trap pushing down our gifts and talents. A trap keeping us from unconditional love. A trap of insecurity and doubt.

My prayer is that fear becomes a thing in my past. This fear is something that I can surrender on a daily, even hourly, basis. My prayer is that fear will not control the potential that God has placed in me…


5 thoughts on “The Snob…”

  1. Dear Saara ,kirjoitan suomeksi (,helpompi) mielenkiintoista oli lukea sinun kirjoitus , uskon etta missa olet ja mita siella joudut kokemaan , laittaa sinut tutkimaan omaa itseasi, joka on hyva asia meille kaikille joskus , olet mielestani , vahva , rohkea ,erittain aito ( real) kun kavin ” day Hospiksessa ” kirjoitimme paljon itsestamme ,eli kuinka hyvin tunemme itsemme ,ja peloistamme vasta sitten kun me voimme ne tunnustaa ,voimme ne myos voittaa ,ja meista tulee ,REAL, ja silloin myos muut ihmiset voivat meita lahestya,se mita nyt siella teet ja koet valmistaa sinua tehtavaan jonka Jumala on sinua varten valmistanut ,sina olet erittain lahjakas ,and loving, muuten et olisi siella missa olet nyt ,

  2. Thanks Heli! There is a good quote…hopefully not offensive to you…but I find it true. “The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.” Most people don’t want to hear the truth, they can’t handle the emotions that come with it. When you can get to a point where you embrace the truth, with all of its pain, there is true freedom. I enjoyed your feedback. You are close to my heart. Hugs.

  3. Saara – loved reading this. Kindred spirit – dealing with the same issues. πŸ˜‰ Be blessed during this wonderful Easter week!

  4. β€œThe truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.” Lol – what a fantastic quote.

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