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Faith in Love….

Is faith just something that a christian has? Is faith something we all struggle with a little? Or is it just the “ignorant masses” that need faith as a crutch?

I have just started my second year of university. It’s a fascinating place to be, and there is so much to learn. Our world is a complex and beautiful place, and the people in it just add to that complexity. But, one thing that isn’t really “valued” in the academic world is the idea of faith. If there is no tangible scientific evidence to prove something, then it must not exist… Continue reading Faith in Love….

Who’s to Blame? (The Silent Scream, P4)

Is it okay to be angry at God?

I think so. He created us, and understands anger.

Is it acceptable to blame God for all of our problems?

Is He the one to blame? Many people believe so. The world is full of anger and rage against God. He gets blamed for the natural disasters, war, and pretty well most of the stuff we, as humans, inflict on ourselves and each other. It is easy to blame God, as He is that unknown entity we tend to ignore unless we have a prayer request.

Who else is there to blame? If we blame ourselves that means we have to take responsibility…and most of us don’t want to take on the burden of changing our perspectives.

Like I said, I was given homework. I went home with papers to fill in. This was supposed to help me understand the emotions I felt. There were lists and charts…”Simple Thought Records”….hmmm. There didn’t seem to be anything simple about my thoughts. They were all over the place. Learning to identify a feeling was much harder than I expected. It’s a good thing there were pages of defined feelings that I could choose from.

As these pages started filling up, there seemed to be an underlying theme. Usually the feelings that I could identify were “aggravation”, “dismay”, “irritation”, “anxious”, “resigned”, “overwhelmed”….you get the idea….they were negative. Part of the assignments were also to give a percentage rate to the emotion. Often mine were between 75% and 100%.

Did this mean that I was an angry person?

Was there hope?

I had spent my entire life trying to fit in. Trying to be a person that other people enjoyed being with. I wanted to be liked. I wanted to belong.

I wanted peace.

to be continued….

Worry…

There is an old Sunday school song that goes through my head whenever I start to really worry…

“Why worry when you can pray?
Trust Jesus, He’ll with you stay.
Don’t be a doubting Thomas,
Rest fully on His promise.
Why worry, worry, worry, worry,
When you can pray!!”

It’s a spontaneous jingle…and it’s true! I catch myself worrying every once in awhile, who doesn’t?? There are times that the worry almost turns into panic. And that is when this song pops into my head. It must be my subconscious reminding me that I have an option. No matter what the worry, I can pray about it. I might not necessarily get an answer right away…but I can let it go. Or sometimes the answer isn’t what we want to hear, but that also is a comfort. It gives guidance to the path we are on. Maybe the fork didn’t go in the direction we wanted, but that doesn’t mean it won’t lead us in His perfect will.

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Crisis of faith

Not so many years ago I had a crisis of faith. I stopped believing in God and all I had ever believed in. It almost felt like a relief. No more pressure to be good and strive for eternal life. I had spent my life watching my parents devoting themselves to ministry and it looked like it was just too much work. God had such high expectations, and I was tired. An apathy set in and I stopped caring. Who cares if I go to heaven if I don’t believe it exists anyways? Continue reading Crisis of faith