After quite a bit of questioning and self reflection, I have realized that the way I communicate seems to be quite different from other women that blog. They have soft/flowery pictures and words of love and encouragement. The bible verses are uplifting, and help others get through another day. My blogs tend to be rants, especially lately, and can make people squirm. Heck, I squirm when I write them.
Why can’t I be like those other women?
Why don’t I respond to pretty prose?
What’s my purpose in all of this? Is there one?
The other day, driving to town, (and in that 30 minutes there can be a lot of time to think) I had a the words “the possessive love of Jesus” going through my mind continuously. What did that mean? I couldn’t find any bible verses that supported that phrase. Did it even sound positive? It sounded a bit like what the latest blockbuster is promoting…and that type of “possessive” is toxic.
After a few days of mulling, I realized that this isn’t something that is written about in the bible. It was something that I was feeling personally. I want to be passionate about Jesus, and I want every thought of mine to possess His thoughts.
John 15:9-17 “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other.”
There is real passion in the this passage. We are to love each other to the point of laying our lives down for each other. He chose us and appointed us to bear fruit. We are to keep His commands to remain in His love. That actually sounds pretty possessive, right?
He wants to be our Alpha and Omega.
Our all in all!
Revelation 3:16-18 ‘So because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of My mouth. ‘Because you say, “I am rich, and have become wealthy, and have need of nothing,” and you do not know that you are wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked, I advise you to buy from Me gold refined by fire so that you may become rich, and white garments so that you may clothe yourself, and that the shame of your nakedness will not be revealed; and eye salve to anoint your eyes so that you may see.…
He doesn’t want us to be lukewarm.
He wants us to pursue Him and everything He has to offer.
Maybe one of these days I can write it in a softer tone of voice. And maybe add a few flowers and uplifting verses to go with it. I know that the world is harsh, and we crave softer things and words. But right now, it feels like I just want to get louder and harsher…!
I want to feel the passion of Christ! To live in His love and His desire for me, and to be humble enough to do anything that He asks.
P.S. And maybe my purpose in all of this is to cause some squirming!?