Category Archives: journey

Silence is Golden

This might surprise some of you, but I have a strong desire to run away and join a monastary. Sometimes that desire is because I am overwhelmed with life, and just want to run away to something simpler…but most of the time it’s because I crave being in a place where I can just focus on Jesus, and to hear His voice.

Life is busy and noisy, constant demands take up time and energy.

Time seems to run out by the end of the day and the body/soul/mind is just beat up.

It becomes hard to focus on the voice of Jesus.

And the craving gets stronger. Continue reading Silence is Golden

Deep Roots…

Imagine a tree, deep roots, large thick trunk, and branches growing in many different directions. It has large leaves, and abundant shade. At some point in history that tree was only a seed. That seed got watered, adequate sunlight, and plenty of room to grow. And over the years it grew, thickened, and started to spread. Some of it’s roots started to seep into the underground sewage systems of the houses it grew beside. Basements started flooding, untold damage done to the foundations, and financial burdens start to add up. What looked like an innocent tree has turned into something damaging. The tree has to now come down. Trimming the branches won’t make any difference anymore.

In our society today we have many of these systemic trees growing. They look harmless on the outside. We try to prune the branches, and even try to cut some branches off, but they grow back in another spot. Continue reading Deep Roots…

Nothing to Lose…

What do I have to lose?

You might be wondering what I am talking about.

This last year has been one of those journeys that I used to only read about. The “great awakening”!! It has been a year where the tears and laughter have flowed, but also the full spectrum of emotion has also been experienced. From the dizzying heights to “the depths of despair”, as so well said by Anne Shirley. 🙂 I have learned to say what I believe, instead of skirting issues. Standing up for what I believe has been harder, and easier, than I thought it would be. Avoiding conflict and controversy was the way I used to protect myself before. It made life easier to deal with…but darkness was simmering below the surface the whole time. Just waiting to explode. Continue reading Nothing to Lose…

Girl Power!

I have been a terrible flirt throughout most of my life. I didn’t see any harm in it, and couldn’t really understand why other girls/women would give me the evil eye. “No harm in a little fun”, said the voice in my head, “I am not doing anything really serious and would never follow through…!” Being popular with the guys was what I knew and what I was comfortable with. Girls and their emotions confused me. So what if their men were having more fun with me?

Hmmm….

Facing this truth has taken the last decade. Stopping the flirting and joking was easy enough to do, but it only has become apparent in the last little while what was really going on.

I wasn’t honoring other women. Continue reading Girl Power!

Hurry Up Jesus!!

Do you even feel that your true destiny is not coming to fruition? You have had a prophecy or a dream in your life, and you know that God has something planned…and nothing seems to happen? Or then we tell Jesus what we think should happen, after all it says in His Word that all we need to do is ask. So we ask, and wait…

And wait.

And wait some more.

Nothing seems to happen. Nothing changes, except I get impatient. Then my “faith” falters just a little bit. Something must be wrong. Maybe God was deaf, or maybe He is too busy to answer…so I start to nag and whine a little. Continue reading Hurry Up Jesus!!

Last Week’s Blessing

I spent a lot of time wandering around my house yesterday. At home, alone, and restless. Watching Netflix seemed like a good option. Why do housework, as it never ends, and I don’t enjoy it anyways. Thoughts were disjointed…and I could feel myself sinking into a funk. Maybe a nap would help? No…

What was different about yesterday if I compare it to last week? On the surface, nothing is really different. Life is good. The future seems bright enough. I have faith…and it seems intact. Then why are my thoughts so far removed from Jesus? Continue reading Last Week’s Blessing