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Roots and Wings

These last few weeks have been a bit stressful, but it’s normal stress, the kind that comes with the end of a school term. It’s even a good kind of stress because you get tested in so many ways. How do we measure up? Are we students that procrastinate? Cheat? Blame? Compare? Do we know anything? Does it matter? Will it bring us a secure future?

It came to a bit of a head this morning. I spent last tossing and turning and worrying about something that I believe to be important. All kinds of imagined scenarios and conversations overlap in my mind. “What about this, what about that? Why not this?” Over and over….! I came to realize that I am craving earthly security. I want to matter on this earth. I want to own and possess things that matter to others as well. I want roots in things that really don’t matter at all when it comes to eternity. 

We root ourselves in relationships, possessions, status, and even a certain identity. We believe that these roots keep us safe, but they don’t. Eventually something comes around that shakes that foundation. We flounder. Sometimes we dig deeper. Other times we find something else to root into. Rarely does it make us root in God. We might grasp on to Him, and beg for a lifeline, an answer, some peace…but when we get our roots dug back in, we forget Him, at least until we need Him for something else.

What does it mean then to truly have freedom. Wings. Can we have both roots and wings? What does it mean to live rooted in Christ, and at the same time living in absolute freedom? It actually means that we need a brand new identity. An identity that doesn’t shake when life throws you punches. An identity that roots only in Christ. An identity that can sleep through the storms because they know that they are one with God. He KNOWS the beginning and the end because HE IS the Alpha and Omega. Our book has been written, and all the floundering on this earth is temporary. It is over as far as God is concerned. He has fought our battles for us. He has given us a new identity as His sons and daughters. Knowing this, deep down, erases the need to have security in earthly identities. 

We can be rooted in Him, and because of this, we have the wings to soar. That is true freedom. I need to read this passage every day. “Actually, I don’t have a sense of needing anything personally. I’ve learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I’m just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I’ve found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am.” ‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:11-13 ‭MSG‬‬

“GOD doesn’t come and go. God lasts. He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine. He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out. He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young folk in their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon GOD get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles, They run and don’t get tired, they walk and don’t lag behind.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:28-31‬ ‭MSG‬‬

The Difference…

We now have a new year ahead of us. January first is also the first day of a new age for me as well, seeing as my birthday falls on the last day of December. So, each time I plan how the next year is going to look. I love the idea of resolutions, but fail miserably whenever I set any. Does that mean that none should be planned for? I don’t think so. It’s the trying that matters in the end. Giving up doesn’t work. 

I wasn’t going to write a blog post. These blogs incite mixed feelings in me, and I don’t know how to always work through them. The funny thing is that every time I decide to stop writing, someone sends me an encouraging message. Well, maybe I’ll write one more, so on to today’s thought…

I rant about living in a material world quite often. Sometimes that is so contradictory to my own thoughts and behaviour…because I love stuff. Love shopping. And I spend money needlessly on things I don’t need. Sometimes it’s a filler to a void, or it is because I want to give something to someone. That led me to thinking about the differences in being self-aware and being self-absorbed. I’m thinking out loud here, but I think that being self-aware means you are more aware of your impact on the outside world, and in being self-absorbed, you are more consumed with the world’s impact on you. Being self-aware means you understand that you are part of the big picture and what you do and say can be important in the life of someone else. When one is self-absorbed, you only think of what others are doing in relation to how it influences your own life.

Both of these actions impact the way we live.
Do we give or take more?

Do we encourage others or talk about ourselves more?

Do we treat others with respect, or demand that they do what we want them to do?

If we’re on social media, do we look to see how we can support our friends, or are we waiting to see how our posts do?

If we do something good for someone else, do we need to tell others about it? Or are we content with knowing that Someone sees and loves you for it.

Do we have a conversation with someone else and listen, or do we do all the talking?

Do we go without something so we can bless someone else, or do we go without to make ourselves feel righteous?

Do we write blog posts ( yes, I do need to think this through…) because we genuinely care about helping someone else, or do we do it for accolades? And if we get accolades, what does it do to the soul?

Well, this is the New Year. (It’s also the year I turn 50!) These are my thoughts, and honestly I struggle with most of these points quite a bit. As I get older, and hopefully wiser, I don’t want to waste my time, or other people’s time, just blowing my own horn. Do I have something to say? Yes, but so do you. We are all wise in our own ways. We all have a place on this earth. We are all valuable to God. I want to spend the next 50 years doing what He wants me to do. And for the reasons He wants me to do them. I just need to know if I am writing blogs for Him, or for me….and I need to know the difference. 

“Good friend, don’t forget all I’ve taught you; take to heart my commands. They’ll help you live a long, long time, a long life lived full and well.

Don’t lose your grip on Love and Loyalty. Tie them around your neck; carve their initials on your heart. Earn a reputation for living well in God’s eyes and the eyes of the people.

Trust GOD from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for GOD ’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all. Run to GOD! Run from evil! Your body will glow with health, your very bones will vibrate with life! Honor GOD with everything you own; give him the first and the best. Your barns will burst, your wine vats will brim over. But don’t, dear friend, resent GOD ’s discipline; don’t sulk under his loving correction. It’s the child he loves that GOD corrects; a father’s delight is behind all this.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3:1-12‬ ‭MSG‬‬

Blessed are the Self-righteous?

No, this isn’t from the same passage where Jesus talks about the poor in spirit etc, but this is what many believe in our churches. I don’t think this attitude is just in churches, but many of us who grew up in a church have felt the sting of it, and even indulged in it ourselves. Some of us don’t like to admit having a self-righteous attitude because if we have any awareness of what is really going on in the hearts and minds of people, we would know that we are in the wrong, not the one we are looking down upon.

What is self-righteousness? The online dictionary describes it as…”adjective: confident of one’s own righteousness, especially when smugly moralistic and intolerant of the opinions and behaviour of others”. Continue reading Blessed are the Self-righteous?

Patience? What’s that?

“What do you love about Jesus?” was a question that my friend asked me yesterday. I had to think about that for a bit. These last few years I have learned about a new Jesus…not the one I grew up with, the one defined by man…but someone more infinitely beautiful. Someone who really loves. Someone who is real. Someone who is beside me at all times, even when I try to push Him away. “I love that He is patient” was my answer.

Yes, He is patient. And isn’t it marvellous that He is? Continue reading Patience? What’s that?

The Made-Up Mask

This morning was a morning where I was given the opportunity to share from the heart. Speaking at the Finnish service in our church is something I enjoy…just don’t tell anyone, because…well, I don’t know if I can handle speaking more than a few times a year. (Good thing hubby doesn’t read my blog.) Getting up there is also really hard. I grew up with ministry leaders, in my own family, and in the extended family/friends around me. I know that they are far from perfect. That pedestal is often a precarious perch. Only God’s grace keeps some of them from falling on their face. And some fall, only to find true redemption. Another beautiful process, but a different topic…. Continue reading The Made-Up Mask

Closer To Home…

I have hit “that age”…finally!! These last 6 months have been a real roller-coaster for me. Being in school full time, leading women’s ministry, and now the the big m-pause! Wow, triple whammy! It helps me explain some of the aggressive behaviour I have been exhibiting in the last little bit. Hahaa!

In sociology class yesterday the prof was talking about aging, and what society says about it. We have that magic number (65), gray hair, wrinkles, and menopause. All indicators of aging…or the way our society looks at it, “getting old”!! The sad thing about it all is that we have, as a society, defined it as a time where we become irrelevant, not worth paying attention to, or not valued. Continue reading Closer To Home…